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Sept 28, 2014 8:32:38 GMT -5
Post by May Adams on Sept 28, 2014 8:32:38 GMT -5
"Maybe they're trying to just scare people out of their illnesses." May scoffed, having her own little experience of that. When she'd first started to deny herself of meals and begin to compulsively exercise, her mother had tried to scare her, but it hadn't worked. In a way, it only challenged her more. It was like a sick little game in her head, pushing her further and further. "I'd probably be a bitch if I worked here, too." She added, smiling slightly to herself. She averted her gaze from between Alec and Ash towards the table, scanning the back of the book she'd just read.
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Jun 20, 2016 12:12:22 GMT -5
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Sept 28, 2014 8:39:13 GMT -5
Post by Alec Kress on Sept 28, 2014 8:39:13 GMT -5
"There's no way for me to be scared out of my illness if there was I would've gladly taken it. Alec probably looked like he never ate because his weight was really under weight. He looked over at May. He wondered why may was there he figured it was an eating disorder or self harm probably eating disorder.
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Sept 28, 2014 11:13:03 GMT -5
Post by May Adams on Sept 28, 2014 11:13:03 GMT -5
May was a little taken aback by Alec's answer. She assumed he had an eating disorder considering how thin he was, but the way his answer came across told otherwise. He didn't have a mental illness, it was physical - he wasn't starving himself, he was drained. May felt him looking at her and suddenly felt very self-conscious. He was so much thinner than she was, and it made her jealous. It was the competitive side of her disorder urging her further. It was competition.
She knew he was looking at her, and she felt unable to make eye contact, so she kept her eyes glued to the table. "You say you've been inpatient for a year, but what for?" She asked quietly.
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May 6, 2015 11:22:18 GMT -5
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Sept 28, 2014 17:21:00 GMT -5
Post by Ash Caplin on Sept 28, 2014 17:21:00 GMT -5
Well, Ash had no idea how to contribute to this conversation. He couldn't really be scared out of OCD either. After all, what use was telling someone that if they did something, bad things would happen, if they were already terrified that the same would happen if they didn't do it? It just left the person a mess of anxiety and stress and, Ash already knew from experience that if he was denied the ability to do one of his compulsions - well, let's just say that's the reason he was in here in the first place.
"A year?" he chimed in, not sure if he'd just missed that part of the conversation earlier. He couldn't imagine staying six months, never mind an entire year? How was the kid even coping? What about school? Was the guy not allowed to have a life just because he was ill? Clearly not. He failed to hide the surprise in his voice either, as the Alec had just managed to make his short stay here seem almost insignificant.
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Jun 20, 2016 12:12:22 GMT -5
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Sept 28, 2014 17:49:22 GMT -5
Post by Alec Kress on Sept 28, 2014 17:49:22 GMT -5
"I uh," Alec stared at the griund never feeling as awkward as he did now because he was used to hanging around other cancer patients and they weren't. "I have lymphoma. " He might as well just say he's dying that's what everyone figured and it was true.
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Sept 29, 2014 0:56:29 GMT -5
Post by May Adams on Sept 29, 2014 0:56:29 GMT -5
"Fucking cancer..." May muttered to herself, watching the floor as she didn't want to look Alec in the eye and Ash probably felt as awkward as she did. She didn't really know how to respond now, the topic had suddenly become morbid and it didn't look like the mood was improving at all. She suddenly thought to herself that she may as well just throw it out there, because they'd already discussed Alec and Ash's illnesses, it would only be a matter of time before they asked her.
"That's so shitty, I'm sorry." She half smiled at him, feeling a bit bad for putting him on the spot now. "I'm in for anorexia." She added, speaking a lot more quickly and quietly. May was ashamed of her illness, and she didn't know how people would react which made her feel like getting up and bolting out of the room. But like her therapist said, she needed to 'push yourself out of your comfort zone or you'll be denying yourself a normal life.'
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Sept 29, 2014 17:54:56 GMT -5
Post by Ash Caplin on Sept 29, 2014 17:54:56 GMT -5
It was slowly beginning to dawn on Ash that the two people he'd managed to place himself in the middle of were living a lot shitter lives than he was. Alec was, from what he understood, pretty much dead and May? Well, she seemed like the type that wasn't so much living, more just existing. He wasn't about to say any of those things out loud, however, as he knew better than to insult the two people he'd come closest to even being friends with since he arrived. Instead, he just sat and tried to figure out what they'd want him to say, as he was positive that saying "I'm sorry" or bringing up some long lost relative that may or may not have had some sort of terminal illness in a pathetic way to relate would just get him looked at weirdly. Gah. Why was he so bad at making friends?
"They both sound really shit," he agreed eventually, biting his lip as his fingers started to flick through the pages of the book in front of him, determined to at least pretend to be reading, "but at least there's people here that are going through the same thing, so it's not like you're alone with it all?" He knew he was chatting absolute bullcrap, and yet he couldn't bring himself to be pessimistic about it all, even if all of their situations seemed pretty bleak.
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Jun 20, 2016 12:12:22 GMT -5
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Sept 29, 2014 17:58:40 GMT -5
Post by Alec Kress on Sept 29, 2014 17:58:40 GMT -5
"Meh I've gotten used to it here...This is my home this were my family is." Alec said. He didn't hate it here he hated being sick here, he hated dying but not here here.
Alec nodded at May. He didn't bash on people with EDs one of the friends he made died because her body wasn't nourished enough because she had an ed.
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Sept 30, 2014 9:43:29 GMT -5
Post by May Adams on Sept 30, 2014 9:43:29 GMT -5
May sighed suddenly, sitting upright on her seat. "Let's say we stop throwing this pity party of illness because it's getting really fucking depressing." She was glad neither of them had commented on her illness, or she probably would have just walked away like she usually did, and she didn't want to be rude to Ash or Alec. They seemed nice, like they could even be her friends. "We should talk about something a bit more uplifting," She suggested, although she didn't really have anything specific in mind. "What are your favourite movies?" May shrugged, it wasn't exactly the most enticing conversation starter, but it was something.
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